Sep 2, 2022

Running on Empty


For us, August is the start of celebrations. Our wedding anniversary (30th this year) and my best friends birthdays. Then comes my Birthday in September. Ron's Birthday in October and Lucie's Birthday in November. 

I've been reflecting on the last 14.5 years, people/friends have come and gone. It's bound to happen. My circle is small. I hold those who care close to my heart. There are my tried and true friends who are always there for me which I am ever so grateful for. And then there were my big girls.

Day in, day out. Absolute utter devotion and love. And it went both ways. This was my happy place.

After we let Lucie go, I was clinging to Addie like there was no tomorrow. Until there wasn't.

Aug 16, 2022



I fell in love with Addie from the second I saw her picture. No arrival was more anticipated. I hung her pictures at work and her tiny little face gave me something happy to look forward to after the sudden loss of our K-8.

The more I got to know her, the more I loved her.

This girl kept me on my toes her whole life long.
Never a dull moment while Addie was around.

The love of a big dog in our home was a presence all it's own. None can be matched.

I had the perfect family. They were so good and respectful of each other. So much fun and love. I just never wanted it to end.

With my first two dogs, the decision to leave this life was theirs. In some respect it's easier to live with when you don't need to make that decision. Choosing the date/time that your beloved best friend will die comes with a pain so unimaginable that I can hardly bare it. All done in the best interest for their quality of life and that's how it should be. We were blessed with an at home Vet that Addie knew well who made this as easy for all of us as possible. I can't thank Dr. Lynn enough. She eased her pain in life and set her free to run again.

My girl is home.

Aug 14, 2022


 I worked a nine to five job the majority of my girls life. Each night after dinner was playtime initiated by Addie. She would go choose a toy and start playing with it. Lucie would bark at her then they would chase Addie upstairs onto our bed. 

This nightly ritual was adored by all.

AND I loved sleeping with my big girls in the bed.

Addie would always start off by curling up at my pillow. I would kiss and cuddle her then she would move down to the foot of my side of the bed. Hailey always provided a turndown service by "fixing" the blanket, then hiding under it until I found her.

Lucie was the wild card. You never knew where she would end up in bed.

April and May of last year were tough on our big girls. They were both dealing with big health issues and by the end of May Lucie could no longer comfortably walk up the stairs. That didn't stop evening playtime at all. Just the location. For sleeping, if they can't come up then I'll stay down. I always dreaded the day I moved from the couch back into bed because that would mean that both big girls were gone. Last night was my first night back in bed and it was brutal. As I laid down in tears, I thought you know what they are not gone. They are here with me and I felt their presence.

Aug 12, 2022

Spirit in the Sky

Full speed ahead my Addie girl. Have Fun.
Thank you for this glorious sign this evening.